A crack let’s the light in

Do we really have to get to the darkest corner to see the light?

Do we need breakdown needed to break out?

Can a process of recovery be speeded up?

Not sure if it’s good to share, but I’ll do it anyway. I’m currently a recoveree after one of those massive breakdowns I’ve had numerous times before, but this time decided to ask for help.

It turned out as one of the best self-care actions I’ve even taken. It has taken me a month to just begin to see myself again, to feel like myself again.

Doing too much doesn’t mean you’re efficient. Following instructions doesn’t mean it’s the right solution to your personal math task.

We get out of balance when we stop listening to our true Self.

It's not them, it's You

The one who can give you all that you need.

It’s easier to wait for something or someone outside of us to give us, to provide us, to love us and nurture us the way we want. Perhaps the way we haven’t received as children. But the paradox is that nothing outside of you can give you the same feeling.

It is about the feeling. The feeling of pure love, of abundance, of determination when making a (life changing) decision.

It’s all in You already. It has always been. You just have to decide to reach for it, to claim it, to use it.

You are the one who imprison and release yourself.

I’ve been in the limbo for consciously 15 years. I get hyped up, I try, I loose balance, I fall. Stay low for some time until I realise it’s a waste of time. So I get up, dust myself off, breath in and go…

Then that voice appears trying to convince me there’s no point. I hear you, I know you. You said that before and look where I am now. You say what you want, but I’m going forward.

Forward and upward, like in the mountain. Always.

It’s ok to fall, some pity time is ok too. Just don’t stay there for too long.

“Live more than you work.”

Strip down

We would live easier and much lighter if we were able to strip down the limiting believes for the same amount of time we can strip down our outfit.

The clothes behind which we hide our body, as it’s not magnificent and our natural look, but it has to be hidden and forbidden of observation.

Last weekend I was reborn again - for the first time I was completely nude in public and in front of people, bathing in the mountain’s river surrounded by nature and accompanied by a close friend. I felt alive. I felt normal and completely natural.

Why do we hide so much? Why is so wrong and unacceptable to be who we are? And isn’t the rules and all the norms actually separating us further from our nature?

I know we can’t just walk in the metro naked, but spending more time nude, in our birth outfit is connecting us more to ourselves, to our bodies, helping us accept it more for what it is - the magnificent, intelligent robe of our soul in this current life.

Take more photos, thank me later

What is the first thing we reach towards when we want to bring back a record for a place, a situation, a state of being? What is the first thing we reach towards when we need to look into the past, the history, the memory of our life? What is the first thing we reach towards after we loose a person dear to us?

Photographs.

Use that smart phone in your pocket not only to screenshot information from the web or note something down. Create more meaningful photographs of yourself, your loved ones, the life you live. Yes, you do look good with messy hair and no make-up on, and no, the body weight is not a reason to deny your existence.

Take more meaningful photographs like we used to back in the days, before photography became the new pen and paper/sticky note/scrapbook pocket diary.

Take more meaningful photographs. Make a small summer album. Remember this time, it will never repeat again (for good or not).

If you only had 36 frames for your summer vacay, what would you use them on?

The more you look, the better it gets

Photography as any other craft demands repetitions. In order to create beautiful and interesting photographs, you have to learn to learn to see. And by learning I mean practice looking at life from different perspectives constantly.

At some point it becomes a habit that nurture your craft and expands your vision. You don’t see life in the same way and cannot I see it anymore. You become the craftsman who will never be an amateur again.

I’m not fully sure if it’s a 100% a fair trade, but it’s definitely worth the ride.