Mirror, Mirror on the Wall...

How do you feel about mirrors? Do they excite you? Or maybe scare you? How much time do you spent looking at yourself? And out of it for how long do you truly see yourself?

While living your unique life you spend most of the time looking the world outside of yourself. This includes other people’s faces, eyes, features, behaviours.

We know that the eyes are the window to the soul, so how much time daily you spent in looking at your own soul?

Many people feel resistance, guild and shame while looking in their own eyes. Why is so uncomfortable looking at the person who knows you best? The person who is with you everywhere you go, in any situation, consuming every thought, doing their best to help you and guide you?

Your eyes are the window to your soul - your unique soul. A soul one of a kind, never repeated, experiencing life in different ways.

Pay attention to the person in the mirror - it has a lot to tell you, a lot to share. It’s not looking to blame you, only to love you, to compare this wonderful life with you in the best possible way. You can always rely on him/her - it will never betray you, rather always protect you.

The anger, guild and shame you feel are not yours. Never were. They have been shown to you and you copied the patten, serving it for years. Looking at your own eyes will give you strength and power that no-one else and nothing else outside of you can ever give you. Knowing your true self will free you from the burden you’ve been carrying for all those years, a burden that was never yours in the first place.

Don’t believe it? - I challenge you. Spent some concious time in front of your mirror. sit down, look at your eyes. Tell your name and tell yourself you love yourself. Cry if you feel it. Let it all out. Turn this into a regular practice and you’ll see how the would will change. Have this tough conversations you always wanted to have but never dared to. Build the bridge towards yourself again.

Learn to truly love yourself again…

New Year Resolution: Break a Life Time Pattern

Patterns… not an easy thing to break. Especially if they’re so integrated in your conscious that it’s hard enough to realise them as something that is harming you. Here I am starting the new year looking at one of the oldest problems I’ve had - pleasing people who don’t appreciate me.

You’ve heard about empaths and narcissist, but can you differentiate it clearly every time? Can you see the traces of somebody who’s somehow in the middle of both worlds, who passionately dislike behaviours in others but don’t see that he owns the very same of them? Can you remove yourself easily form somebody you grow loving feelings towards when they make you feel drained rather than energised? When was the last time you used to blame yourself for things that are not even yours? Did you make it out or you’re still there hoping they might see your potential or how much you actually do for them?

Many questions the answers of which are often uncomfortable.

You can make it out, but you need to spent time with yourself. The only way to see who you really are is by speeding time by yourself with yourself and conscious making the effort to get to know yourself - your light and your shadow.

It took me years to be able to see it, yet my pattern is still pulling me to the familiar pain instead of me going towards the less familiar but healthy way of being and living. Many, if not all of my intimate relationships have been toxic. They used me, abused me, left me, blamed me and I still looked towards my faults and how I can better myself so they can “take me back”.

What a waste of precious time.

The truth is my dear is that love, friendship and companionship are not supposed to be hard. They are not supposed to be a way to use one another or for blackmailing. They are not supposed to blame and hurt, but rather respect, support and help towards healing. None of us is perfect, but pointing finger towards the other person is simply avoiding your own responsibility of actions.

Pay attention to what gives you energy and what takes it form you, and that especially includes people close to you. Family is something you need to figure out as you grow and often hared to separe from. However friends and lovers that you let in on your own justice should not make you feel drained, used, belittle and unappreciated. If you don’t feel well, accept it and find a way to let them go. It’s okay.

It’s okay to choose you. It’s okay to walk away from something that is hurting you. It’s okay to put yourself first. It is okay. In fact it is necessary. Nobody else but you knows exactly what You need, and how You feel. So the only way to take care of yourself is to listen to yourself. to make the necessary adjustment and move on in a way that is good for You first.

When was the last time you spent time by yourself for yourself?

Your Body, Your Canvas

Who is there for you when no-one is there? Who is taking care of you, holding you tight, moving you forward, nurturing you and giving it’s best to guide and support you?

Your Body.

The Bestest of friends you will ever have. No judgement, no manipulation, just simply a reflection, love and service. Giving you back all that you give it, the choice is yours.

Took me years of physical and emotional pain to realise there’s no-one there but my body. My body, my house, my secret temple, my life diary.

Photographing my body has helped me reach this connection. A connection for belonging and acceptance that I was long longing for. Looking out in all the wrong places to finally look in the mirror and see that all I needed was right here during this whole time, waiting for me to realise it.

Out body is like a clean blank canvas. When we’re born is tight and fresh. With the ears and experiences you mark it with all different colours, chemicals and textures. The picture of our own life gets developed layer by layer, paint brush by paint brush. What we use and what we do with our canvas matters to how long and in what state will live. Why not take care of it to look its best until the end?