It's not them, it's You

The one who can give you all that you need.

It’s easier to wait for something or someone outside of us to give us, to provide us, to love us and nurture us the way we want. Perhaps the way we haven’t received as children. But the paradox is that nothing outside of you can give you the same feeling.

It is about the feeling. The feeling of pure love, of abundance, of determination when making a (life changing) decision.

It’s all in You already. It has always been. You just have to decide to reach for it, to claim it, to use it.

You are the one who imprison and release yourself.

I’ve been in the limbo for consciously 15 years. I get hyped up, I try, I loose balance, I fall. Stay low for some time until I realise it’s a waste of time. So I get up, dust myself off, breath in and go…

Then that voice appears trying to convince me there’s no point. I hear you, I know you. You said that before and look where I am now. You say what you want, but I’m going forward.

Forward and upward, like in the mountain. Always.

It’s ok to fall, some pity time is ok too. Just don’t stay there for too long.

“Live more than you work.”

Drastic change or simple decision

While longing for the dream outcome, we often get paralysed by making a simple decision.

It’s like we’re tired of walking the path before we even started. Or afraid that all that we wish for can come true.

In the end it’s just the ego trying to protect us from danger, yet not every unknown aspect of life is a life threatening danger.

A long way starts with a little step forward. A desired change starts with a simple decision. The quiet, inner decision of “I’ve had enough”.

And just as simple as that, you never turned back…

Do you listen to your body?

Do you listen in the silence of your own? Are you ever in enough silence to hear? And if you do hear, do you follow up or ignore?

The body.. One of my main subjects in my work and in my own personal life. All the beauty I see and intent to capture, mixed with all the challenges I’ve faced with and within my own. A diary I will probably write until the end.

Our magnificent, intelligent bodies are guiding us, telling us what we need to know in every moment. Unfortunately, we don’t always listen. Rather the contrary - we try to numb the feelings, so we can escape either responsibility or the acknowledgement that we need to make a change of some sort. Here is one example - the anxiety.

I didn’t know when it appeared in my life, but I do know now I’ve tried many times to numb the fearful feeling through physical or emotional substances. To only end up hurting myself more. Why do I this? - I asked myself so many times. I’m yet not sure, all I know is that photography has helped me many times up to this day.

In creation we loose idea about time, space and fear. Preset moment eliminates anxiety, it focuses your mind, giving you the space and security of the present. We’re often so lost in the past of in the future, that we forget to pay attention to the only moment we actually have - the now. I know you’ve heard this before, but do you practice it?

Here is me now, writing this with an anxious heart. My body is not calm, my mind is afraid. All I know is I’m not alone, maybe you’re accompanying me now or can relate to it. Why don’t we listen more? Why don’t we believe in our own body intelligence and guidance to show us what to do, who to love, what to trust and where to go? We tent to trust in others that have no idea how we feel or what we dream about.

Don’t let the fear stops you, don’t let it freeze you. Listen to your body, it knows you better than you think. Trust it, as it’s the only body that will never betray you, the only one that will be there for you always. The one that holds the guidance and support you need to go through life.